A Month in review: August 2017

Hello, interwebs! Sorry about this post being late ( college am I right?) I wanted to continue this series as I go on to college so that I can reflect on my goals as a college student as well as sharing some advice that I learn along the way.

August was a crazy month. Leaving home, leaving my boyfriend ( shortly after our one year anniversary), and starting college in a new place far from home. At this point in time, I thought that I would have been emotionally and physically exhausted. However, much to my own pessimistic surprise I am loving life here in college. Like I mentioned in my other post, the first week was this weird time of getting used to campus, getting my routine down and facing some of my anxious fears. The idea of living with another person, having to eat in a hall with lots of other people, and showering in the same room as six other girls terrified me. I was so scared about what people would think about me, if I looked weird or didn’t dress correctly, and if I would make any friends.

The one thing I’ve come to adore about UPS is that everyone here is so nice. Back in High School, there were lots of people I didn’t like ( I mean I’m a pessimist who thinks most humans are scum, which they usually so don’t blame me) and there were lots of people who thought I was weird. Here, everyone is so accepting of everyone’s own uniqueness that well, to be frank, nobody really cares. However, it is in the way that by them not really caring, that they are actually caring. You see it’s not an ” I don’t care about you or your personality/life choices” it’s an ” I care enough to be chill and not make you feel weird about something you might really enjoy”. This idea I think is what makes this campus so much like a large family. We all find the people that like the same things as us and if we find someone who likes something different, we are usually fairly enthusiastic and supportive ( of constructive things of course).

Besides settling into classes and new home life, it was time to settle into college classes. Now, this isn’t my first time attending a college class. In High School, I actually took a dual enrollment Psychology course for Psych 101 and 114 ( for those of you that don’t speak college numbers yet, it means Beginning Psych and Abnormal Psychology) so settling into my classes here wasn’t too much of a challenge. Getting used to getting up and eating breakfast in a new place took some practice but after almost two weeks I’m starting to get the hang of it.

As for settling into a life without Ian, that was really hard. As I’ve mentioned numerous times before; my boyfriend Ian is one of the backbones to my happy existence. I say this in a way that we have come to rely on each other on a deep emotional level that leaving each other felt like a plug being pulled out of a socket. He was excited for me to be going to my dream school, exactly where I wanted to be, with friends he liked and could trust, and in a town where he knew I would be safe. Nevertheless, the whole thing was extremely melancholy. At first, I thought that I would be extremely anxious without being able to see him every day. But as I grew closer to my friends on campus, while still keeping in touch with him constantly, I found a perfect balance where I still felt like he was with me ( just on a more emotional level rather than a physical one).

As for my advice for this month, stay true to yourself. If I have learned nothing else in college it’s that if you are the person you actually are on the inside, the right people will flock toward you. Trying to pretend someone you are not for the sake of pleasing the people around you is bad for your health. Leading a life where you flip from mask to mask just to make people happy is no way to live your life. I am happy being the person I actually am and reveling in the things that I get to do because of that. Never feel pressured to do things that you don’t want to do because of social or parental pressures. Of course, that being said, if it’s something you really have to do then there is always more than one way to solve a problem. In the end, if you aren’t happy, there is something you can do to fix that.

Stay lovely, Stay Kind,

Lia

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May: A Month In Review

Hello, Interwebs! Today I will be continuing with my usual review of the months as they pass by.

Today, I’d like to focus on this idea of ” becoming oneself”. This meaning, to become the person you are meant to be. I’d like to think that this last month I have done more self-growth and self-exploration than I have in a long time. As I am going to college soon, I looked back on my high school experience and looked at all of the things I learned, all of the things I want to continue doing, and all of the things I want to leave behind.

For many people, this is what you’re experiencing right now. This sort of ” beginning of life existential crisis”. Therefore, I want to offer you some of the things that I have learned. The first of those lessons being ” all in due time”. I grew up sincerely thinking that I would never go to college. ( and I spoke about this in depth in another article so go and read that one). ” All in due time” means that you will come upon what you are meant to do or where you are meant to go if you are meant to go or do those things. Leave things up for the future and enjoy today ( of course that doesn’t mean you should do any planning. always plan)  The second thing that I’ve learned is that, above all else, be true to yourself. Many people today think that they need to be this person that they have envisioned as being a better version of themselves, I was one of those people. I used to think that I needed to act a certain way and refrain from being my true self for people to like me.

Now I know people always say ” be yourself and everything will be okay”, that isn’t what I’m telling you. Being yourself won’t be easy, isn’t the path to popularity and won’t get you Instagram followers; but it’s the truth. When you are your true and authentic self the people in your life that you don’t need are weeded out and you find yourself surrounded by people who genuinely like you for you who are, not who you pretend to be.

In the end, May is all about endings become beginnings. We are in this cycle of life whereas one door closes another opens. At the close of this article, I will leave you with this quote

” Without Darkness, there is no Light. For Life is the beautiful lie and Death is the ugly truth”

 

April: A Month in Review

Hello, Interwebs! Today I will be doing my usual review and look back at this month of April.

As many of you know, college is slowly approaching. One month left of school and then I will officially be a college student, which is pretty nerve-wracking if you ask me. This time is sort of melancholy, in the way that I am really excited about college, but I am also really sad about having to leave my family and my boyfriend; both of which I won’t be seeing for a long time as soon as I leave.

Besides all of the college stuff, April is time for fun memories. Prom ( being on the day I’m writing this) which will be a night of fun and dancing which I will hopefully remember as being one of the best nights of high school. Soon after, I have all of my May events including; May the fourth be with you, Senior Trip to Knott’s Berry Farm, and the renaissance faire. All of which should be fun and exciting creating lots of memories for me to look back on for the rest of my life.

April is also a time of new beginnings. With spring coming in, there is this new sense of energy and importance. I always see myself becoming more productive and more motivated during this time of the year, so hopefully, some of that energy can inspire some of you to do things that you wish you had been doing.

Spring is also a time for self-care. Recently, my friend vowed that she would help me get in shape, as well as help me to feel more comfortable in my own skin. If you are constant readers of mine, first, that’s super cool so thanks, second, you would know that I am taking this month to really focus on my mental illness and to really find ways to help and heal myself both mentally and physically.

Overall, my advice for this month is to take care. It’s always important to take care of yourself and to really be honest with yourself about your own health. Take some time to sit and relax as well as be productive and do the things you’ve been wanting to accomplish.

Stay safe, Stay healthy,

Lia