Beauty Review: BH Cosmetics

Hello interwebs! After being sick for the past week I am back with a review of BH cosmetics. If this post is well liked I might go on to do more posts! Without further adieu let’s get into this.

 

BH Cosmetics is a severely underappreciated brand.  For those of you that have never heard of the brand, it is a solely online makeup brand that offers professional quality makeup for extremely low prices. I’ve actually been a long time customer of BHC, their 88 Color Palette is one of the first makeup palettes I ever bought. That being said, they have come a long way from the products and quality that they sold all the way back in 2010. I recently purchased their 120 Color Palette generation 3. It is a mix of vivid brights, neutrals, smokey colors, and shimmers. As always, I was impressed with the color selection. Compared to my old and beloved 88 color palette, this was the queen of BH ( in my experience) the 88 didn’t have as many neutral blending colors as I would have liked and lots of the bright colors weren’t pigmented at all. However, in this new pallet, there was a wide range of colors and most of the ones that I have used thus far were extremely buttery and pigmented.

I actually use this pallet for a daily makeup instead of grabbing my new favorite Urban Decay Naked Heat palette. I can use this for basically any makeup look I want and I can also use it for LARP, Cosplay, and SFX makeup; as I had used the 88 color palette in the past. Recently I used the palette in a look for an Alternative photo shoot that I did with my friend ( all photos are posted on the new facebook page if you would like to see them). I loved the way the look turned out and was really impressed with the shoot. The colors blended perfectly allowing me to create the perfect maroon smokey eye look.

Overall I am very impressed with the growth of this brand. Of course, they will always have a soft spot in my heart but I wouldn’t keep repurchasing if I didn’t think the products were worth the money. Not to mention, they are always having sales on top of their rock bottom prices. I paid $17 for the 120 color palette on sale, which is pretty darn ridiculous ( cheap that is).

That’s all for today hope you guys liked this new post format!

Stay beautiful,

Lia

 

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Long Distance Relationships: Living Without Your Personal Therapist

Hello, interwebs! Today I am going to be talking about my experience thus far with my long distance relationship and the struggles we’ve both had along the way. Particularly, I wanted to touch upon the idea of mental illness and how you are deeply affected by the lack of your significant other.

They never said that this was going to be easy. I knew that the moment I left home we would be in an uphill battle that most people had deemed we would lose. We both were very fervent about staying together and we knew that if we worked hard that we would make it out okay. That being said, we underestimated just how difficult it would be not seeing each other every day. In High School, we were around each other constantly with allowed us to share our struggles in school with the other person as well as our mental struggles.  He was always there to stand there and hug me and tell me that everything was going to be okay.

As I’ve started the new school year in college, I was optimistic that my issues with my Anxiety wouldn’t return. I was in a place I loved, surrounded by new friends that truly care about me as well as teachers that were looking out for my well-being and the state of my mental health. At first, I was great. I was going through school like a piece of cake, everything was soaking in; until recently. School started getting tougher and I could feel my anxiety making it more difficult to learn things. Like any dedicated student, I sought out tutors and increased and diversified my studying habits. Even though I did all of these things, I wasn’t getting the results I had hoped for, which of course, allowed my Anxiety to come back in.

Besides school, I’ve always been someone who has been very conscious of my diet. Not in a way that I limit what I eat ( besides the normal trying not to drink soda and what not) I am just conscious of what I eat and try to eat the healthiest I can while still enjoying the food. Now that I am in college, I am very aware of the “freshman 15” which basically stands for Freshman gaining 15 pounds by the end of the first semester because they don’t know how to eat properly. While I was at home if I wanted something I could make it. I cooked all the time, making salads, rice bowls, fish, chicken; anything I wanted to make my body and me feel better. In college, you no longer have that luxury. I have a kitchen downstairs, but that being said, Gordon Ramsey would pass out looking at it ( not exactly built for actually making good food). Therein lies the dilemma, trying to scrounge for healthy foods inside the dining hall, or eating salads for every meal ( not fun). My point being, the lack of healthy foods leads to an anxiousness about the look of my body which in turn makes me want to go to the gym more as well as allowing that not so body positive side of my anxiety to come back.

While I was at home if I wanted something I could make it. I cooked all the time, making salads, rice bowls, fish, chicken; anything I wanted to make my body and me feel better. In college, you no longer have that luxury. I have a kitchen downstairs, but that being said, Gordon Ramsey would pass out looking at it ( not exactly built for actually making good food). Therein lies the dilemma, trying to scrounge for healthy foods inside the dining hall, or eating salads for every meal ( not fun). My point being, the lack of healthy foods leads to an anxiousness about the look of my body which in turn makes me want to go to the gym more as well as allowing that not so body positive side of my anxiety to come back.

After living through this for about a week and a half now, I’ve made some conclusions. One, even without my boyfriend to help me be less anxious and body positive I have some amazing friends that have reached out and cheered me up to make sure that I’m doing okay ( which is really refreshing). Two, I am not perfect nor am I meant to be. I think as a person with an Anxiety disorder, we want ourselves to be perfect in order to make up for the fact that we have a mental illness. However, that’s the point right there – we don’t have to make up for the fact that we have a mental illness- It’s something that is apart of us and we have to accept it and learn to love it like the rest of ourselves. We also have to remind ourselves that we are human and we are not meant to be perfect, it’s just not how we were made. Lastly, the fact that I am communicating with my boyfriend about these struggles and he is too only makes the idea that we really do need each other to survive more prevalent. I know most people would say that is a bad thing but, I’d have to disagree.

I don’t mean to say that I am completely dependent on my boyfriend for emotional support. That being said, it is more of an interdependence. I need him to help with my anxiety and he needs me for his own set of issues and struggles. It allows us to communicate more as a couple and also allows us to remember to open up about our struggles so that your partner can share and help in times of need. As my advice for this post, if you have a significant other or not, don’t be afraid to ask for help. Your friends, family and trusted others are there to help you get through rough times and surmount them with power and confidence, so that you can be the person you want to be. Never be afraid to fail, never be afraid to struggle.

As always with love,

Lia

A Month in review: August 2017

Hello, interwebs! Sorry about this post being late ( college am I right?) I wanted to continue this series as I go on to college so that I can reflect on my goals as a college student as well as sharing some advice that I learn along the way.

August was a crazy month. Leaving home, leaving my boyfriend ( shortly after our one year anniversary), and starting college in a new place far from home. At this point in time, I thought that I would have been emotionally and physically exhausted. However, much to my own pessimistic surprise I am loving life here in college. Like I mentioned in my other post, the first week was this weird time of getting used to campus, getting my routine down and facing some of my anxious fears. The idea of living with another person, having to eat in a hall with lots of other people, and showering in the same room as six other girls terrified me. I was so scared about what people would think about me, if I looked weird or didn’t dress correctly, and if I would make any friends.

The one thing I’ve come to adore about UPS is that everyone here is so nice. Back in High School, there were lots of people I didn’t like ( I mean I’m a pessimist who thinks most humans are scum, which they usually so don’t blame me) and there were lots of people who thought I was weird. Here, everyone is so accepting of everyone’s own uniqueness that well, to be frank, nobody really cares. However, it is in the way that by them not really caring, that they are actually caring. You see it’s not an ” I don’t care about you or your personality/life choices” it’s an ” I care enough to be chill and not make you feel weird about something you might really enjoy”. This idea I think is what makes this campus so much like a large family. We all find the people that like the same things as us and if we find someone who likes something different, we are usually fairly enthusiastic and supportive ( of constructive things of course).

Besides settling into classes and new home life, it was time to settle into college classes. Now, this isn’t my first time attending a college class. In High School, I actually took a dual enrollment Psychology course for Psych 101 and 114 ( for those of you that don’t speak college numbers yet, it means Beginning Psych and Abnormal Psychology) so settling into my classes here wasn’t too much of a challenge. Getting used to getting up and eating breakfast in a new place took some practice but after almost two weeks I’m starting to get the hang of it.

As for settling into a life without Ian, that was really hard. As I’ve mentioned numerous times before; my boyfriend Ian is one of the backbones to my happy existence. I say this in a way that we have come to rely on each other on a deep emotional level that leaving each other felt like a plug being pulled out of a socket. He was excited for me to be going to my dream school, exactly where I wanted to be, with friends he liked and could trust, and in a town where he knew I would be safe. Nevertheless, the whole thing was extremely melancholy. At first, I thought that I would be extremely anxious without being able to see him every day. But as I grew closer to my friends on campus, while still keeping in touch with him constantly, I found a perfect balance where I still felt like he was with me ( just on a more emotional level rather than a physical one).

As for my advice for this month, stay true to yourself. If I have learned nothing else in college it’s that if you are the person you actually are on the inside, the right people will flock toward you. Trying to pretend someone you are not for the sake of pleasing the people around you is bad for your health. Leading a life where you flip from mask to mask just to make people happy is no way to live your life. I am happy being the person I actually am and reveling in the things that I get to do because of that. Never feel pressured to do things that you don’t want to do because of social or parental pressures. Of course, that being said, if it’s something you really have to do then there is always more than one way to solve a problem. In the end, if you aren’t happy, there is something you can do to fix that.

Stay lovely, Stay Kind,

Lia

1 Week Away: Thoughts and Tips about going away to College

Hello interwebs! Today I am going to be continuing with my little series about heading off to college. Since I am leaving in about a week, I thought I would make a post updating you on my thoughts and feelings as I get so close to my final days at home.

 

Like I’ve said from the beginning, college has always been somewhat of an anxiety inducing topic. As an only child who’s never been away from home for long, this is an entirely new experience. However, as I get closer to actually leaving, there is this odd sense of calm. I think it has to do with how insanely prepared I am and my level of anxiety induced OCD. I’ve gotten all of my stuff, I am almost already packed, bought all of my school supplies and not to mention I’m going to the school of my dreams. ( it’s also a nice bonus that I got a super sweet room and an awesome roommate). With the calm and the happiness also comes with an overwhelming sense of melancholy. I am also leaving my family, my hometown, my best friend and my boyfriend as I leave off toward the unknown.

Leaving also feels like some wonderful, great adventure. I’m leaving to become more of my own person and experience people and things that will ultimately impact my life greater than anything in High School. It will make me a stronger person and hopefully, more self-assured. I think college is the ultimate time to figure out who you are and what you believe in. You aren’t surrounded by parental pressures to be one way or the other, which allows you to really delve into who you are on a very intimate level. You also have your future to dream about. What makes you happy? What could you see yourself working on/for, for quite some time? All of these things, with some good introspection and hard work, will come to you eventually.

This is also the time in which we can learn to be individual adults. The first thing I would like to mention is that you really need to take care of yourself. I know you will hear something similar from your parents, but it is important to take care of your health and well-being; both mental and physical. Mental health is really important to your overall health and happiness and like I’ve said a thousand times before, if you need help please do not feel ashamed to get it. You also have to take care of your physical health as well. Staying up all night on Redbull and Doritos won’t help your skin or your brain ( among many other things). This also doesn’t mean starving yourself because you don’t want to gain the freshman 15. Everything of course in moderation and with some light exercise you should be totally happy and healthy.

That leads me to my last point if you aren’t happy, leave. No one wants you to be unhappy and if a college or room mate or whatever is making you unhappy, miserable or depressed; maybe it just isn’t for you. I also want to stress that this is OKAY. Going to a 4 year, big wig, university isn’t for everyone. Of course, I am a large advocate of higher education but if a big private university isn’t for you there are many other options available.

Overall, I am excited for what’s to come and I wish everyone great sucess in college!

Love and hugs,

Lia

My Summer of Traveling: My best travel advice

Hello, Interwebs! I know its been quite a long time since I’ve posted anything but, I just recently got back from all of my summer travels!

As you know, I recently graduated high school (yay!) and as my graduation present my parents took me to Japan. To preface this, I have been interested in Japan and Japanese culture since I was a little girl, therefore, my parents promised me that if I did well in high school that they would take me to Japan. Japan was absolutely amazing. The people there are the kindest, most loving people I have ever met in my entire life. There were so many instances where we would have gotten horribly lost without the help of random kind people. We were in Japan for almost three weeks so packing was certainly an issue for us. We knew that we were going to be buying a bunch of souvenirs so we had to decide carefully what we were going to do.

1. Carry-on suitcases are the way to go

Honestly, I can’t stress this enough. A good carry-on suitcase along with learning how to pack better is the best way to travel. For our trip to Japan, we decided to all take carry on luggage ( because no way are we paying $30 a bag) and then buy a suitcase there. We actually needed a new suitcase anyway so this worked out. The biggest part about this is learning how to pack. Learning to pack more efficiently helps keep you organized and allows you to only take the smaller suitcase ( and not pay the money! YAY!)

2. BACKPACKS

I absolutely love backpacks. I never carry a purse and use backpacks for almost everything. Especially when you are traveling long distance backpacks help keep everything organized and usually they are more comfortable and safe than purses.

3. Camera

Decide what camera you want to take based off of a) what you have and b) what you are willing to carry around. I brought my big DSLR thinking that I was going to take a bunch of photos and videos ( don’t get me wrong I used it a ton) but toward the end of the trip I just wanted to enjoy the time there instead of being stuck behind a camera. It just depends on what you’re comfortable with.

4. Planning vs Spontaneity

I am always for planning vacations. I think a lot of times there are things that are necessary to plan in advance.However that being said, make sure everyone is on the same page with what they want to do, or else one person ends up planning the whole thing which leads to no one getting to do what they want. Being spontaneous is also something that I recommend. Not having a plan for EVERYTHING makes for a better trip and interesting experiences. Don’t be afraid to just go out there!

 

Well, that’s all I got for you today~ I’ll be posting all of my photos of my trips soon. If you want a more in-depth travel guide from my trip to Japan let me know!

Stay cool,

Lia

Bullet Journaling: My first time and first impressions

Hello interwebs! Today I will be talking about my new introduction into bullet journaling and my first impressions of this widely popular way of planning. Now I’ve only been doing this for a few weeks now, so I’m going to do an updated impressions post as I continue to use this method.

For those of you that don’t know, bullet journaling is a type of planning in which you use a notebook with an index and page numbers in order to make a planner that is specifically catered to your style and needs. Usually, a bullet journal consists of a mix of planning and serious topics as well as journaling type pages. There is a whole website made by the creator of the Bullet Journal and I suggest taking a look at that website if you are seriously interested.

For me personally, I wanted to have a system where I could easily plan all of my school events but not have to keep spending money on stickers in order to make spreads look visually appealing. I also wanted something in which I could track more personal things and keep a look at my own mental health as the months go by. I was drawn to the bullet journal because of its customizability. Fully endless layouts and possibilities to fit my needs and wants, which is pretty darn cool.

That brings us to my bullet journal. While up in Seattle, I stopped at my favorite stationery store Kinokuya and got all of the needed supplies. I decided on a bright blue Leuchtturm 1917, with dotted paper, a Pilot Opt. 0.5 pencil, and some of the Mildliner highlighters ( which seemed like a must according to the bullet journal community). I first started in it at the airport on the way home and I’ve kept up with it since.

As for my first impressions, I am really loving it. It allows me to be really creative with spreads and have everything that I need there and accounted for. Now that I have my spread almost down pat It’s been really fun to sit down there and think of themes and what not to put in there. As for the notebook itself, I love the dotted paper and the notebook is so cute I can’t help but love to write in it. I would also totally recommend the Mildliners because they totally help add color to spreads without seeping through the paper.

Well, that just about does it. Please let me know if you want to see pictures of my spreads and if you want to see more things about bullet journaling in the future.

Happy spring everyone!

Lia

 

Chivalry is dead: An online roleplay storyline

Hello interwebs! It’s your friendly neighborhood redhead here and today I will be sharing with you the storyline for my upcoming RP series “Chivalry is dead”. As of right now this is a small private thing between my boyfriend and I but we will be adding our friends in at a certain part of the story ( which will make a ton more sense after reading this). Happy reading!

Chivalry is Dead  

Two people, renegades of their own planet, find themselves stranded on a strange and unfamiliar world. They stumble upon a ruined castle, abandoned long ago after falling in a war. While this castle was unfamiliar to them, they made it their new home.

Their home planet, Nebula VI, was ravaged by a nuclear war over a decade ago, but still remained in a post-apocalyptic state. Millions of people died in the war, and more continue to die from lingering radiation. After the war, the local government, otherwise known as the Republic, attempted to reform the country. Because of the war, many criminal and organizations such as the Mafia came out of hiding and started to fight against the government, wanting to take over the country.

The epicenter of the battle between the Republic and the insurgents, Capital City SR2, bathed in chaos. In recent events, the Republic began to regain control of the Capital and sent hundreds of various criminals into a large, reconstructed jail. Not long after this mass roundup, a nuclear bomb detonated a few miles away, completely destroying the jail. Anyone who saw the explosion in the distance knew that it brought certain doom with it. A prison break was stirred, and over ¾ of the prisoners escaped. Among these was a young female assassin named Jade Rogers. Jade located an operational escape pod and killed her fellow inmates who had commandeered it. Unknown to her, she had a stowaway on her vessel: a warrior long forgotten, named Raiko Gryffin. Only after Jade managed to escape the nuclear explosion did Jade become aware of his presence. With a certain degree of difficulty, he convinced her not to kill him, but the escape pod was damaged by the blast. So wherever they were going, they were going there together.

Just outside of the Nebula Prime system, their little escape pod started bearing down on another planet. Its sensors, old and damaged as they were, could not sense this planet. The pod was sucked in by the planet’s gravity. Thanks to their lack of control over the craft, Jade and Raiko braced for impact as the pod crashed into the side of a hill.

The castle they fashioned into a home was not without a history of its own. It was once ruled by A tyrannical king. King Jacob was a notorious king, taking in all of the worst people, banding them together to build his army. This king of thieves sent his subjects; namely assassins, rogues, dark wizards and witches, and evil knights; out to plunder the surrounding villages in search of treasure. After twenty years of torment, those villages decided to fight back. Against the king, they ultimately prevailed. He and all of his army and subjects burned at the stake.

Many legends surfaced after this that the castle was a nexus for dark energy. These legends also stated: should a descendant of Jacob be put into the same situation as he, the remains of the castle would appear to them, allowing them to live in safety. Once the descendant discovered their true power, the planet would become visible to the rest of space, allowing his heir to spread Jacob’s terror and death across the galaxy.

I hope this gives some of you writing your own storylines some ideas. Please read my post on storylines to see the steps I took on making this. Also, I will be posting more on this series as it progresses so follow me in order to stay updated.

Stay Classy,

Lia

Creating a storyline: A guide to being an awesome RP gamemaster

Hello interwebs! This is your friendly neighborhood redhead here and today I will be talking about writing storylines for online RP ( roleplay). Since my last post about character creation was so popular I decided to continue this sort of Roleplay informational series.

Today, I will be going through the steps that I take when I am writing an initial storyline for a new roleplaying campaign. The best thing about roleplay is that you really don’t know how other players will act and in turn how the story will progress. As a gamemaster and a player, I like to leave hints or suggestions to where I would like the story to go in order to make it more interesting, but oftentimes the players end up coming up with really good side storylines to progress that particular campaign.

That being said, this particular article will go into the original storyline or the backstory that people will base their characters off of. Without further interruptions, let’s get started.

1) Where and when do you want the story to take place?

I think that these questions can really help spark ideas for a story. Most of the time I will pick a specific place ( a castle, a border town etc) in order to help guide my setup for the beginning of this story. In our new campaign, Chivalry is dead, it takes place in a post-apocalyptic world where after a nuclear world war the main characters find themselves on a distant planet stuck in the medieval time period. Starting with this foundation can help with a lot of the smaller details later. Always check back to this stage to make sure that your characters, plot, and other smaller details fit within the original time period and setting.

2) What is your conflict?

Every good story has to have a good conflict. This is the thing that your heroes, or villains, have to accomplish in order to achieve some goal. This conflict can be big or small and it can be interrupted by smaller conflicts along the way. Conflict makes your story have a purpose so picking a good one makes your background much more interesting. In ” Chivalry is Dead” the conflict is a) finding a way to survive and b) getting along with the other people on this unknown planet. I have some other more intriguing conflicts in mind but this is just a background for the beginning of the game anyway. ( also in case my members are reading this I’d rather not spoil it for them)

3) Background Information

Give them some history. What is it like in that place? Why is it like the way it is? Is there a form of government that players should know about? Is there any lore or myths that may impact character creation? The list goes on. Just make sure you include any details that you would want to know when creating your character in order to stop a majority of the questions you would get while your players are creating their characters.

That’s about it! It usually doesn’t take me long to write a story but I often add to it afterward for a few days. I never remember to add everything so my boyfriend ( who’s a more seasoned online roleplayer than I am) to see if there are any details that he would want to know so that I can add them in before I send it off to the group. Since we use Minecraft as a medium, I often build the map we are playing on before I even write the story. That medium also impacts how much I can do considering Minecraft is a fairly rudimentary game. Nonetheless, roleplay is what you make of it and if you really put the time and effort into a game it will be super fun!

Let me know if you want me to continue this series and if you would like me to post the story for our upcoming game!

Live long and prosper,

Lia

 

Character Creation: The difficulties of creating playable characters

Hello interwebs! It’s your neighborhood redhead here and today I will be talking about character creation.

If you’ve been a reader of mine for some time now, you may remember a post I did talking about online roleplay and my personal experience with it. Although my experience has been limited regarding the whole roleplay/LARP community I’ve been creating characters for years. I’ve always been interested in writing and when I was younger I would sit and write characters as a means to pass time etc. and I often “lived” in those stories and characters a majority of the time; so when I transitioned into roleplay and LARP it wasn’t something that was out of the ordinary as I have been “playing” other people in my head since I was a kid.

Now on to character creation. Character creation can be really difficult. When first starting out creating a character it is usually best to become an amplified version of yourself. This makes making decisions and straight out acting a whole lot easier. For Lizabeth, I decided to make her the person that I had always wanted to be. She’s confident, witty, strong, a little bit quirky, etc. I’ve also had Lizabeth as a character since I was very young so adapting her to the Etrian story we created wasn’t hard. Similar to this route, you can choose to make a character that is opposite of yourself. If you’re naturally good, make a character who’s a thief, or a bloodthirsty assassin.

For Example, my boyfriend is someone who wants to protect his loved ones and the ideals he holds close. His character, the assassin, takes special effort to make sure those goals are met by whatever means. I think picking something like this to make your character off of is also a good idea because you know what to base a majority of your decisions on. It can be really hard to come up with a character that you can wholly stick to, and I think that it really can make or break your overall gameplay.

That’s all I got on character creation. Let me know if you want a specific tutorial on how I made our characters or other posts like this on writing characters ( like how to write a backstory etc)

Stay classy.

Lia